.LESSONS.

3/12 SUNDAY 9:00a
Mmae: sis? anu oras shift mo? rina: 10pm po. kadarating ko lang sa haws? why?
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*3/12 sunday 10:00PM
rina: sis? sori kanina ha. why do you want to talk po?* then we talked thru text and later on i called her on the phone. She complained of how her lovelife is a hell right now... how when he asked her for a cool-off that she would like to scream a big YES to him and how miserable, "sawang-sawa", and "pagod na pagod" na xa sa mga pagseselos at paghihigpit ni marvin. I told her that maybe the reason why he is doing that is because he needs some assurance that she really cares for him. She reasons out that he is paranoid and being so mahigpit to her because most of his past relations ended up having a third party. I expressed my opinion that, that is not fair to her. He shouldn't have compared her to his past girlfriends since Mae is a different person and he should make kilala muna the true Mae who never in her dreams nor anyone's dreams would do such an awful thing like that. I told her to settle her feelings. She has a lot of reklamos against him. And had no channel to voice out her feelings. I told her that being in a relationship needs love, respect and TRUST. and when she agreed to be his gf so has vowed to make a commitment in the relationship. So he just have to trust her. I told her to tell him her feelings since communication also plays a big role in sustaining a relationship. If she cant tell it straight to his face, she can just write him a letter. She said she is worried that it might ruin his day since his birthday is on TUE and they planned to celebrate it together. I told her, well if thats the case then she can opt to just give the letter to him in the latter part of the day. After our talk, i believe she eased out... her burdens lighten a bit. I wished her happiness and luck on her relationship.
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3/13/2006 MON 3:30AM
*i forwarded a text message to REMYXX:
"Kasama mo ko lagi, Di kita iiwan. SAbay taung iiyak.... Sabay taung tatakbo, At kung madapa man tayo sabay rin tayong tatayo....AT sisigaw ng.... "waah! Lashing na naman tayo!!!"
3:46AM
lux: Wat if i tel u im crying now and im drinking?
rina: is dis a joke?
4:34 am
lux: nop! Im serious... kanina pa ko umiinom mag isa.. and ang gulo2 kc ng nangyayari sa pamilya ko... I dont know if i can still handle it... Im so down.. Dey nid me i know dat so pls understand if i cant go with u guys during dis tyms... ='c
rina: * i forwarded her a text message to just trust the LOrd for He will not leave her ... and thAT she can do it*
5:06am
lux:I dont think he's der for me 4me... I never loose faith in him eversince but dis is wat i get... Nagiging unfair na ata xa.. Sis prob ko nato b4 pa tau magkasama pero until now e2 pa din....
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3/13/2006 MONDAY 8:23PM
mae: ok, so see ya guys march 26. f u guys can bring drinks too... bawat isa, mas maganda para hindi tayo kapusin ... see yah!*we are all excited because mae and i scheduled a swimming sa Volets this march 26 and we all think that we would all have a great time. ... take note: ivy commented "wow, one big family ha". why? u must ask? because when she asked me why mae said "we are 8. isa pa pra mag 9" .... vy really thought differrently .... she thought the people who will go are :1.mae 2.rina3.bax4.lux5.vy6.mhe7.pj8.rodel
when in fact! the list goes like this:1.bax2.vy3.rina4.rodel5.mae6.marvin7.anak ni marvn8.maybe kuya itchard9.*kung cino choice isabit ni vy
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3/13/2006 MONDAY 10:?? PM
rina: sis im worried about lux... it seems like she has a big problem right now that she evens questions our Lord for treating her like that... i would like to forward her text to you....
mae: sige sis forward mo...*forwarded lux's msgs earlier*
mae: anu naglalashing xa.... bat di nya tau ini invite?
10:50PM
mae: teka, sama nga ko... kita kita tayo?? mag absent na ung mag aabsent??
11:44PM
mae: sis? wat tym ng wed? kaninong bhay? she nids some1 to talk w/... naprapraning cia cz she cant tok to any1 just like me....
rina: *so get 2 geder na ba tau? emotional therapy eto.*
12:40AM
mae:sis, talk s impt. u wudn't believe it but it cud be a big help, ok din naman inuman while talking, im so busy, im sorry, can u gather the rest??
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3/14/2006 TUESDAY/12:45AM
REMYXX: r u available this WEDNESDAY MAR15?wat time?pls txbak.. its very important.we need some serious bonding hir... and it cud mean alot to some of us.
12:50aM
bax: sori hindi po ako pede. sobrang matatambakan ako ng work
rina: ok po.
1:00aM
bax: sori hindi po ako pede. sobrang matatambakan ako ng work, gano b ka importante?? bax:hindi ba aabot yan ng 26? kailangan ko malaman kung gano ka importante un sa inyo??
rina: hindi ata bax eh. many things can happen between now and 26. *lux wont be there on the 26*
rina: ok lang po kung di ka pede. but it cud mean alot to some of us.
bax: sori di ko ma gets, hindi pede sabihin sken kung ano talaga meron..
rina: well, c lux may problem, na sobrang bigat ata dahil pati Diyos ay kinikwestyon nya... c mae problem sa relationship... and me .... my mom will undergo operation...
bax: wer? wat tyme? wed, ryt?...
bax: cge samin na lang... di nako papasok para sa inyo....
mae: sis?? ano po?? wed?? free ako nun eh....
rina: pumayag na po c bax. sa kanila ate jo daw sa diesel.
mae: wait sis ah, confirm mo muna if lux cud come, mamya plano tayo tapos ala naman cia....
rina: eh sis? di nag rereply sken eh... text mo nga muna c lux
mae: wait, i hav to ask permission pa... u'll hear from me again kung ok na sked ko... i'll txt her muna...
mae: afternoon mga 4pm para out na ni ivy un... Den pasok me ng 10pm... Is dat ok?>> o txt po ni lucky... reply to her kung ok kayo.
bax: oo kila ate sa diesel
09204556740: sis paload naman pls, naubusan ako eh, promise iL pay u bak, kung pwde 60, pag hndi kahit 30 lang po, bka may loadan jan, wala po d2 eh,
09204556740:Hello? Mae po to, pa load naman po, promise iL pay u. Kahit 3 lang po, Hindi ako makareply eh. Thanks!
mae: i'll txt mhe probably later, for now settle muna naten ung sateng lahat. C vy nalang hindi nag rereply pero ok na kay Lux, bax and u
rina: tulog pa po c ivy, bakit ikaw di pupunta??
mae: ok na kay lux, syo at bax. ok din un makati... ihabol nalang po c mhe. sis, nagtampo c marvin, kc nag VL ako for him, dahil nga bday nia. and hindi niya ineexpect na mag kaka lakad ako ng wla sa lugar...
rina: anuuu?? akala ko ba ok ka na?
mae: kala ko din po ok na eh, nagalit ata c marvin coz he wants to spend time, nag VL nga po ko for him...
rina: huh? wattt? di ko po ma gets!!
mae: nag VL ako Tues and WED dahil sa kanya.. kay marvin. so lam nya kaming dalawa magkasama, so sumama loob nya wen he found out kanina na may lakad ako ng wed. cnundo nia ko sa cainta e.
rina: pero akala ko mamaya kau magkikita kasi maya ang bday nya?
mae: nsa quiet rum na siya at ako rin, he just picked me up. most likely po magkasama kami later nga... gusto nya la akong ibang lakad ng wed. pero cnabi na nia kanina.. cge tumuloy na raw ako dahil naka OO na ko senyo, pero binawi ko kc tampo n siya eh..
rina: sis? hindi po ba pwede pakiusapan mo sya.. kasi minsan lang mapa oo ang remyxx .... kau araw araw na magkasama .... eh ang remyxx bukod sa hirap magsked ng get2geder eh minsan lang mapa oo clang lahat..
mae: i'll try po. kaso nagkamali ako ng approach.. bigla lang akong nagyaya ng gimik w/o telling him first. ciempre nga naman he shud knw kc for him ung VL ko eh. Hindi muna ko sure pero i'll try d best i can pra makasama, wag kayo magalit pls.
rina: hmp!
mae: sis, wag ganyan ... ta try ko po talaga, naiipit nko.. pero i'll try my best.
rina: di ako nagagalit. naaawa ako sau kc nawalan ka na ng freedom to choose what u wanna do, and do our own decisions. Naawa ako sau kc di ka nya nirerespeto at pinagkakatiwalaan ... naiinis me sa bf mo....
rina: naiinis me sa bf mo kasi isa syang ...self-centered, attention-deficient, and selfish pig.... este person pla ... for not allowing you to decide for yourself.
mae: i dont know po. nasanay na cguro akong gn2.. mula noon gn2 nkme.. sna lang po maging ok na lahat.. i dont knw wat i mean basta wish ko maging ok lahat
rina: so wut do you want me to do? i text c bax at lux na di na tuloy? at si mhe at vy na jok jok jok lang yung mga txt naten kanina??mae: nope, everything will push through, lahat po ung part ko, i still have to know pero tuloy yan.
mae: i'll tell him, nd i'll ask him again about this. ok? i'll use all the powers i hav para payagan ako ng hindi cya nagagalit..
mae: naintindihan po kita.pacensia na, but he sed YES na kanina, may tampo nga lang... sana marinig nia cinasabi mo at mapanaginipan nia.. hehe
ivy: huaaatttt!!?? naglalashing cia bat di nia tau ini invite, heheh.. teka ano naman yung seyo mae?! :)
*to tlaga c ivy late comer.... hehehe)

3/14/2006 TUESDAY 7:19AM
mae: sis, ok npo ako sa meeting 2m... c yah 4pm
mae: ok na po yun, pumayag na siya, ddnt u receive my txt? ok napo ko. see yah 4pm.
rina: sis? nakausap ko na po c tita mhe an.... di daw ba pwede sa sunday morning na lang? available kya ang spi pipol ng sunday?
mae: sis, panibagong txt galore yan, pero where?? kc sunday nasa cavite c bax alam ko eh.. tapos sunday baka house lang po c lux, family prob nga db? same reason kung bakit di cia makakasama ng sunday swimming?
rina: honga pala , bka kya na pa oo kagad c lux kasi baka tatakas lang sabay ng pagpasok nya sa work./
rina:REMYXX: so finaL nato! meting po bukas mar 15, kanila bax sa makati, aternoon 4pm. Kung may inuman pwede din!! cee yah guys! ok to ky mae, rina, bax, lux at vy! :-*
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MARCH 14,2006 TUESDAY10:16AM
mae: wala pa po yung load, i cant txt mhe kc la pko load eh, pero it seems ivy nlang hind reply kung
rina: anu?? di mo pa na text c mhe? eh nakausap ko na nga kanina.... ta try nya pa kung maka undertime xa ... tsaka c vy ok na...
mae: i nid load sis, 30?? pay nlang kita, pls?? la nako load e...
rina: cge po saglit lang hanapin ko pa yung ka opismeyt ko na nag eelod .
mae: wag yung load sis, did i txt u about a load??
rina: opow noh! eto oh ... forward ko pa sau...eh sino nagtxt sken nun multo??
mae:hindi ko po sinend un eh.. sorry
mae: tnxt k yan pero nung isang araw pa, kahapon po..
rina: ay naku! bka naka pag elod na yung opismeyt ko... text ka na lang pag nanjan na.
11:15PM
mae: Sorry, naku... andito na nga po yung lod... nways, it's ok... thnks po, sorry sa abala...
11:16PM
mae: break n kmi ni marvinrina: huh?! wut happend?
12:18AM
mae: nabasa nya yung txt mo sa akn na kesyo d nya ko nirerespetorina: Im sorry 2 hear dat, yet why do i hav dis feeling na i wud lyk 2 say im happy 4 u sis? :c u dont deserve hm, based on ur stories i think.
12:29AM
mae: tnx, marvin to
rina: marvin 2? is dis a joke?
mae: yup, atleast now i know na di ako ok sa yo para kay mae
rina: Now i know dat her stories are true. U rily dont trust my bestfriend huh. U hav to get her cp and pretend u r mae.
12:40AM
mae: i just forgot to put my name
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REMYXX: wud u guys beliv this...?! marvin got mae's cp, pretended na xa c mae and txted me na brek na cla.... when i answered ... im sorry to hear that yet im happy for you... he said .... tnx.. marvin to.... now i know na di ako ok sa yo para kay mae.....
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march 15, 2006 wednesday1:41AM
lux: nag txt me ke mae, kunwari asking if 2loy tau 2m den kung sa haws xa manggaling sbi ko sabay na kami... im still w8n 4 a reply.. u dont have 2 wory im wid u.. if ngaun plang ganun na ung lalaking un much better ngang magsplit cla n mae, but we nid 2 talk 2 her 1st...
rina: im worried kay mae,,... ako pa ata ang magiging dahilan ng brek up nila, or where is she now... anu na kaya ang ginagawa sa kanya... Nag aaway ba cila o anu... tuloy pa kaya tau later or cancelled na kaya yung march 26. what if she chooses him at talikuran ang remyxx...
lux: nagpakatotoo klang sis, and i think dats fair 4u and mae,... now its his prob kung pano ung ggawin nya if ever magdecide c mae after wat happen... hes supposed 2 worry and not us wat he did is not a joke hwag lang nya taung tkutin dahil kahit ano mangyari d natin bbtawan c mae....,
lux: e2 nagreply na... -- ihahatid po ako eh, hehe
rina: sbi ko sau lux eh.... ihahatd daw xa...
lux: parang walang nangyyari ah... aware kya c mae? txt mo kya mae bout wat happened sbhin mo sa kanya basahin nya yung sent items nya...
rina: e gurl.,, baka c marvin pa rin ang may hawak noh... tsaka malay mo kung binura na nya yung sent items....di bale ... nandito pa naman yung mga messages eh... diko pa binubura .....
lux:correct wa mo muna burahin jan ok? anong way mo 2m? sabay tau kya lang baka malelate me, pero mas maganda late na tau puntya para if ever andun na c mae, 5pm kita tau lrt... cge na ganun tym na lang.... ok?
rina: gurl? tnx for the talk. Now im not shaking. its gud 2 know dat we all share the same sentiments on him(m). I juz hope mae wudnt do anything bad or worse decide 2 let go of remyxx for the sake of him.,, :c
lux: i dont think mae will do that ... we jaz hav 2 beliv in her ....ok.... U
3:16AMmae: sis?? mae po to, sorry for ol d texts, dat wasnt me... lumabas kc kami... nd he saw d txts n my fone ...
rina: talk to u later sis
3:29AMmae: opo, better :)
rina: nga pla sis, i called ur haws kaninang 1am, i tot u wer home. I wud lyk 2 talk 2 u sana not d impostor mae, yet sbi ni kya eric pumasok ka daw s work...
mae: they knw i hav pasok eh, i just spent d day with him, im out but not in d office, i'll be home by 5am, normal uwi ko po....
rina: sis im worried.... r u ok??
4:08AM
mae: yes, no need to worry we'll tok later, ok?!? :)
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4:40AM
Vyo: ganun?gagong un huh,... hindi ko pa kc alam ung ibang rison y u dont lyk him eh, d bale mamaya we shud tok bout dat too....
4:46AM
vyo: eh mare, s nkikita ko mae loves him, asyd frm d fact n ganun ung gnagawa nia ke mae... and un ng hindi ko mashado alam...
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MARCH 15, 2006 wednesday9:45AM
09204556740:Saint Jude Worker of Miracles helper for the helpless Pray for us send it to 9 of ur friends including me and ur wish will be granted... It never fails!
9:50AM09204556740:9-scond prayer:"Lord, i love u and i need u, come into my heart and bless me, my family, home and friends, in Jesus name Amen" Pass to 15 people. Miracles wil com ryt now.
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MARCH 16, 200610:23 am
rina: d2 nko haws. Tnx vy bax. Ingatspo. Im rily2 sori dat we hav sacrificed our precious time 4 a meeting w/c turned out dat way. We learned our lessons, Dis won't happen agen.
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POST SCRIPT:
MONDAY,MARCH 20, 2006
It has been 5 days ago when my quiet world turned sour and made my body shake in disbelief that this would actually happen. It's like a story out of a soap opera. My bestfriend and remyxx are one of the people whom i'd give my life for aside from my mom, brother and rodel. So when my bestfriend confided me her problems in her relationship, i told her to settle this and she needs to voice out his feelings on him. Our talks also included plans for the March remyxx gimik and we were able to schedule a get together on March 26 Volets swimming. She told me na isasama nya si marvin and his son. Its fine with me and i told her its time i get to meet him na. Im excited about the swimming and when mae told him that i am excited about it, he said .... "uuuy sabihin mo jan sa friend mo na hindi naman ako ka gwapuhan ano.. bka mag expect yan saken,,, un tamang gwapo lang parang robin padilla." ..... eeeerrrrrr! it's a shame that he thought im too excited to check him out! gross! I told mae to clarify this to him ... im not excited bout him ... its the remyxx swimming and im excited to have a get2gether with mah friends not him!

mae, would like to meet before the swimming .. she said she would like to buy a swimsuit or pambaba(shorts i guess) ... i guess some boardshorts .i said im game with her... mae and i could also have some much awaited quality time together and we could share some girl bonding moments along with shopping and planning for the details on march 26. I suggested to go to market market where we could find some good buys sa tiangge styled mall. told her im available WED, THURS, FRI (am) , or SAT. its her choice when . she said we can go out WED since she really wants to tell me alot and she said she applied for VL from her work so it won't be a problem coz she'll be available.

Came along Lucky's message. It's not shocking for her to have a problem like this however i was bothered by the fact that she questions the Lord for her miseries and has gone far off by drinking all by herself. She must have needed all the emotional help she could get at these times. Plus the fact that Lucky tends to incline to suicidal tendencies .... i worried for her safety. I texted mae reg this issue .... and all she said was to organize a meeting ASAP. Since we are both available WED.... we took it from there and asked for the other remyxx's approval. Its ok if they are not available.... we know we have our own problems, workloads to finish and miseries to get through. Yet knowing that one of the remyxx members needs all the support she can get ... we cant help but to agree and compromise for the sake of our beloved remyxx.

So, we have finally settled a meeting. Rina, bax, lux and vy agreed. Mhe is still not sure since she has work till 9pm and cant promise to go halfday. But then where's mae? around 2am after she told me to gather remyxx..... she said she still needs to get permission. It turns out na nagtampo ang kanyang bf because he thought they will be spending TUE and WED together. During that time I thought, that was a lame reason. He is so selfish to demand all her time. Compared to him,, he gets to be with her everyday at work while mae's friends, remyxx, us only gets a once in a blue moon chance of getting together and update each other about everyone's lives. Its not only chismis and inuman we are up to .... its the bonding moment... the reminiscin' and the emotional therapy that we get, knowing we are not alone in battling this cruel world .... that we still have the remyxx - our gurlfriends since college ... thru geometry, trigonometry, approj and internship..... thru programming projects... thru thick and thin ... thru hardships and heartaches .... knowing that they are still there to just listen to our whining makes our busy and chaotic world a little less busy and chaotic.

But then looking back.... from this point of day ... i admit i had been so rude of assuming him as a self-centered, attention-deficient and selfish person. I did not even put myself in his shoes and did not tried to understand why he acted that way. Maybe he really thought that they will spend the days together and its really mae's mistake not to pre inform him that she has plans on Wednesday. .... Maybe he has plans for something special to do with mae and she schedued a new "lakad", ruined his enthusiams. Looking back i would be upset too if rodel did that to me..... i wouldn't be too strict to tell him what to do or not to do yet it would be a sign of respect to me as his partner just to tell me that he plans on going out with his barkada or somethin'. Now i understand why mae's bf was upset and as per her word "nagtatampo" .

Come evening before WED, i received a msg from mae's cellphone. It says "break na kami ni marvin". I was not shocked nor surprised since she said she really wants to quit the relationship. I was just curious to ask what happened.... reply says ... dahil nabasa nya yung mga text mo sa akin... well, i thought what the heck.... that was my opinion... everyone was entitled to our own opinions. And i never even met the guy... my opinion was based on how mae portrays him to me. Eventually it was just marvin whos texting me. He says now he knows that i do not approve of him for my bestfriend. That part sure shocked me. I think its rude of him to pretend he is my bestfriend and text me like that. I think if he would like to know my opinions or ask why i wrote the messages that was on mae's cp.... he should have asked me straight out. anu ba naman yung "Hi *shunga* this is marvin, i've read ur messages to mae.... do you mind to explain why you felt i do not deserve your bestfriend?"...(dagdagan pa ng "Is there something that i can do to prove your opinion wrong?"..swak na sana) Honestly, i would be straightforward to him and tell him her miseries . Its just upsetting that he needed to pretend. *what a wuss!*My worries that night is that she might be in a bad situation during those times. Nagaaway ba cla? Sinasaktan ba yung bestfriend ko..? What will happen now to their relationship? Is mae ok? I dont wanna be the person who will ruin their relationship... .. Matutuloy pa ba yung WED meeting? Magkakaroon pa ba kami ng chance na makausap si mae? matutuloy pa ba yung Remyxx volets swimming? Makakapag bonding pa ba tulad ng dati yung remyxx?

But then after all the chaos, texting with lux, trying to make contact with mhe.... mae texted me shes's ok and i dont need to worry. She was sorry for the messages kanina and that she will be there at the meeting.... ihahatid daw... sino pa edi ng bf nya.

Wednesday, 1:30pm.... vy texted na malapit na daw xa lumabas., hehe ang friend ko sobra naman ang pagka excited na magkita kita kaming remyxx!! So mga 3pm nandun na c ivy ... naghihintay magisa since si bax at ate jo, nag shopping ata muna. A few minutes before 4pm, nag tx c mae at lucky, kagigicing pa lang daw nila.... so, as usual late na naman. Sabi ni vy, napapanis na daw ang beauty nya sa kakahintay sa min so nagmadali nako pagpuntang Diesel. Naligo, got dressed and hailed a cab to Buendia. Pagdating ko sa haws ni ate jo, nandun na nga c ivy.... and kadarating lang ni kuya itchard. So, wait wait lang kami konti... mya mya dating na si lucky at mae... i forgot kung sino yung mas naunang dumating si mae ata i think.... hinatid daw xa... when i asked kung nasan na ? (sino pa edi yung bf nya!) she said sa kanto lang daw xa hinatid. *hmm... bakit kya sa kanto lang sya hinatid??*** then dumating na din cina bax at ate jo mga past 6pm ata . Si mhean.... sabi nya text ko daw xa ng 6pm kung anu na nangyayari.... well during that time wla naman. hehe biruan lang ng biruan !

Dumating c mhean ng 8pm she was able to convince her TeamLead to allow her to undertime..(out nya ay 9pm) ... a few minutes nang nagsheshare si lux kung bakit may pasa sya sa kaliwang braso.... kung bakit sya naglashing ng monday madaling araw at kung bakit di nya nakuhang mag invite! We had dinner, nag sopas lang ako. Mind you, sarap ng sopas ni ate jo! hehe
Mae was asking kung hanggang anong oras namin balak mag stay... for sure mhe will be going home earlier.. pj was texting her to be home by 9pm and not to do anything bad. Bax filed Emergency leave and she said she was soooo looking forward for this meeting that she sacrificed her work just to be there for remyxx. Ivy has work the next day 6am but she is willing to absent if we will have a night long chat. Im available so im willing to be there whatever plan. Lux, after all the persuading that bax did... agreed to sickcall at work eventhough her ate knows she went to work by 10pm. We all know mae is also available that night and we are expecting a long explanation from her. There is no definite plan, yet most of us are willing to compromise everything just to be there for remyxx.

While lux was sharing her sentiments, mae's mom called her.... i think she is checking if mae is really with us. It turns out mae's mom told ate leeway that remyxx will be having a meeting .... and as always.. being the all-time-ever-obedient-sister awardee.... di na napakali si lux and reconsidered staying. She's scared that ate leeway might actually call her workplace to check on her. Hehe. Ano na ba nag latest kay lux? Sige na nga sanay na kami. Mae and i decided to stay naman... kung may inuman sure!

Then after dinner, we finally got the chance to talk to mae. First it was just mae and me at the dinner table, I was asked by mae if i called her house the other night. "Yeah, i told yah, did i ? I told yah i called, thought you were home coz i dont wanna text your phone anymore and c kuya eric ang nakasagot." .... she was all the time using her phone.... a barrage of message were coming and going. "Your mom?" "yeah, she's just paranoid... mama talaga..." .... Then a few moments later when mhe joined us at the table, the talk forwarded to the second reason ... why we called an emergency meeting. Mae apologised for marvin's texts... i said it was ok... its just that i was worried and freaked out for her the other night.... she said she is aware of the messages.... she knew that he is texting me.... and that she was just beside him .... "We were together, nabasa nya yung mga message mo sa cp ko. Nagalit xa (marvin) kasi nga.... hindi ko man lang sya pinagtanggol sa inyo.... and the fact that i told you bout the relationship stat... sabi nya kami daw yung involve sa relationship..... he was my bf i should have told him instead of telling other people.... i retorted... hindi naman other people yun eh.,.. the fact is bestfriend ko yun... we know each other for like 5 years...and to whom would i run to ... syempre sa bestfriend ko " ... "Mae,may bestfriend b xa?" tanong ni ivy out of nowhere.... hehe si vy talaga galing sumegway! hehehe.... "He wants me to text you... sbi ko ayaw ko nga.... mukha kaming tanga nag iiyakan kami sa baywalk.... sbi ko sa kanya.... ikaw i text mo!" sabi ni mae.... hmmm... i was flattered for the fact that she disagreed with him when he said "other people" coz we are not other people. Remyxx are soul-sisters, we are actually like sisters for each other, we might be of different genes, backgrounds and personalities but deep in our hearts we share the same amour for each other, bonded by the hardships and trials we've encountered in college as well as our personal strugles since the day our paths crossed. But then times change, people change...... we cant actually conclude what her true feelings are....

So there we are the six of us at the round table... oh i mean square table listening to mae... it might appear to some that we are grouping against mae, interrogating her for what happened. From time to time, nagkakasabay kami ng banat ni bax at lux, there was even a time na nasabihan ng "bax,foul yan... wag ganyan".. ni mhean. Mapapansin din na maya't maya tunog ng tunog cp ni mae... messages. A few more moments around 10pm .... nagdecide na po si mhe na magsalita.. .. kinukulit na ata sya ni pj na umuwi eh... she said she had to summarize na the talk.... I didn't remember most of it... I THINK mhean groped for the rightful words pra mag sound na neutral sya sa situation or she doesnt want anybody getting hurt by her words kya ganun mga words nya. All i can remember is that ... we had to accept the fact that mae is already is in a relationship... marvin is already a part of her life and hopefully for the future.. and mae is a part of ours... so we have to deal na hindi na ganun ka always available si mae sa mga lakad ng remyxx... mae wouldn't always be the ms. scheduler for all our gimiks anymore. *eeekkk! we are not demanding all of her time tita mhe... probably tita mhe is pointing to how marvin is so strict with mae's schedule ... and us questioning his possesiveness of her time na kahit na once in a blue moon lang mag kita remyxx compared to them na araw araw eh he would always check on her and as much as possible sumunod sunod sa kanya.* Mhe was saying that marvin is a part of mae's life now... most of us might not approved with him for mae yet we cannot deny the fact that mae choosed him as her partner and we only see him as what mae tells us. In our minds marvin might be the not-so-perfect guy for our beloved friend yet that is because we can only see the side of him that mae is telling us about *which is by the way .. her disagreements, tantrums and low moments with him* ... . we might not see the sweetness nor the thoughtfulness he might be showering her. *hmmm... point taken tita mhe... i agree with your opinion* .. mhe continues.... about the march 26 swimming... hindi naman dapat all of a sudden we need to be super close friends with him na kagad.... or in the opposite be super showy of how we loathe him .... we should just be casual or civil .... if he has difficulty reaching for us then we might just have to deal with him.... *errrr!ganito nga ba yung gusto iparating ni mhe?! ehehehe*** Then beso dito ... beso dun ... next thing we knew pauwi na sina tita mhe at lux.
We froze there for a minute or two... me, bax and ivy trying to absorb all the things that we've heard while mae was so busy texting ... then nahimasmasan ata si hazel .... asked if magpapabili daw ng toma.... ok lang saken at kay vy.... si mae... hmmm.... actually i was just observing her ... i remember umoo na xa kanina sa overnyt idea... 5am daw kami uwi. But then sa sunod sunod na text... nag iiba yung expression ng mukha nya... di mapakali...parang nag papanic... then sabi nya she has to go home.... around 11:30 .... sorry daw... i said ok... i was thinking ... watta hell would we do now... magtitigan kami 3 ni bax at vy.... i felt there is a wall that needs to penetrated... nga lang nobody wants to be the first one to break the ice... i told bax then i would have to go home na rin.... hmmm... badtrip ata c bax... nag yaya bumili ng inom si mae .... i gave 100 ... ,.,,, tatawag si mae sa labas.... we all went out kaming lima kasama si ate jo. On the way to the store... nagkukulitan si mae at bax at ivy.... bax was asking mae and ivy na dagdagan yung money yet mae keeps on laughing ... wla na daw sya allowance 600 na lang daw money nya ... and vy was willing to give 10 pesos ... haha! *naicip ko,... anlakas magyaya nito ni mae ng inom di naman xa nag dagdag... eh ako nga na 300 na lang pera nagbigay pa for that* nyways, pati si ate jo, hiniraman ata ng pera ni bax na 100 para makabili ng enough sanmig light for the 5 of us... si bax at vy na bumili sa other side ng diesel .... while i was left with mae habang sya ay tumatawag ... kay marvin ata kasi mahina ang boses... ... long silence from me... then we headed back to the house .. .. long silence again ... i had this hesitations na umangkla sa mga braso ng sis ko like i used to. ... anu bang meron?? eeewwwwan ko!!
Back to the house... nakabili na ng sanmig light... tag isa isa kami... inom ko kagad sken... bakit lumilipad utak ko.... bakit wla ata akong maintindihan o maalala sa mga sumunod na nangyari.... gusto kong may sabihin yet bakit feeling ko ni conclude na ni tita mhe kanina... then nagulat na lang kami ... "guys.. una nko ".... si mae after checking the message on her cp..... speechless kami lahat .... vy said sabay nalang daw sya... "ok lang... may sundo ako vy... naka cab sa labas... sabay ka?"... ivy after hearing na may sundo pla si mae... umayaw na.... habang ako tumango lang kay mae. then silence afterwards.....

i think hindi pa kasi malinaw sa amen tatlo ni bax at vy kung bakit ganun eh... we were expecting alot of talk from her..... bax and i were confused that before the meeting her words to us were like..... "sawang sawa nako.... pagod na pagod na ako... i was traumatised sa nangyari na sa tuwing makikita ko sya natatakot ako....sis when he asked me for a cool-OFF i really wanted to say a YES." .... then all of a sudden... "oh guys im sorry ... dont worry about me ... im ok... we talked... nag iyakan kami sa baywalk kagabi.... ok na kami..." ... huh!??? right???! are you kidding me?? iniyakan ka lang ok na kau? well, what can we say ... wla naman kami dun to judge how sincere he is or what... ... you said you are ok? fine so be it... kaw naman ang nakikisama dun sa tao.... we think na mahal mo na nga sya .... may sarili kang utak ... malaki kana.. marunong ka ng magdesisyon kung anu ang tama at mali para sau...... (these are the opinions coming from my twisted mind) .....

from 12am to 4:30 am, the four of us (bax, me, vy and ate jo) talked and analysed all the things that happened.... along the way enlightening ivy on the issues...... i found out na sumama and loob nila hazel at ate jo sa pag iwan sa amin sa ere.... nag absent pa cila just to accomodate us in their haws...... tambak ang trabaho ni hazel kinabukasan dahil nag absent sya .... si vy ganun din ... katakot takot na pag sosorry ginawa ko to them ... nahihiya talaga ako.... bax thought i was the one who desperately called the meeting ... nilinaw ko na i did not!! i maybe the one who texted them yet mae is the one who insisted for a meeting.... sana man lang kahit di nakapagstay sina mhe and lux .... mae should have stayed .... we were not done with her yet... if she says the issue with marvin is over.. ok fine... then sana pinagbigyan man lang kami ng toma and bonding chuvaness ever.... sbi ni mae see yah next week daw... (sa swimming ata to) however... bax(who was shocked to know on this night that marvin would be there) and i decided not to go on with the march 26 plan..... eventhough mae says marvin backed out at di na sasama dahil nahihiya na daw at wla ng mukhang ihaharap pa sa amin... bax and i agreed na we dont wanna be there na. Ang pinunta namin dun eh fun and bonding tapos wla nga si marvin pero we guess maya't mya eh tunog ng tunog din cp ni mae at mangungulit na susunduin na sya pauwi... na ah!!!! wag na lang po.... di din kami magiging masaya..... so might as well cancel the swimming na lang.
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